Waiting on the Lord to Loose the Weight that Holds Me Down

 When I hear the word, not in a sentence, just the word, "wait"- but may hear it incorrectly as "weight". I know that I am a fairly patient person, but I also have issues waiting on things that I think should happen earlier or more quickly than they have, or do. I also have struggled for much of my life to get control of my appetite and weight. 

I know that there are some promises and prayers I have prayed where I am still waiting on God to see the answer happen. I will admit that too often my waiting has been more impatient than it should have been. Maybe something like this...

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Can you relate to feeling that way? I know I shouldn't, but there are some prayers I have prayed for a long time. (Yes, I know time is relative- but it sure feels that way.) 

Do I know the Lord has heard the prayer? Yes. 

Do I know the Lord cares? Yes. 

Do I know that this is His will? 

   For most of them... YES, absolutely, YES! 

SO, I wait... On Him.

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While I am learning to wait on the Lord, with a better attitude, not a hurting heart. I am learning to trust in deeper ways, that He knows when it is the right time. I am learning new depths of His love, and that He cares- but also to listen and hear what is on His heart. I also know that in the waiting I am changing. The parts of me that need new alignment with His heart, are getting their needed adjustments. 

Isaiah 40: 31 - "But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. they spread their wings and soar like eagles, they run and don't get tired, they walk and don't lag behind." (MSG)

I know that in the past I have read this verse and I have wanted to soar, like it says we will do. However, this time, what I see is that waiting on the Lord builds your spiritual muscles. In the natural you lift weights, to tone and strengthen the muscles in your body; so, waiting on the Lord builds your spirit, giving you strength to run longer, or walk longer and to not faint.

When building muscle, sometimes it takes a while before we see the definition, before it starts to be noticeable. It takes time of using weights, and exercises to work certain muscles, and it takes being faithful, dedicated, regular at working on it, to see a difference. 

Waiting on the Lord is working different "muscles". It's learning to regularly listen to Him. It is regularly taking time to get quiet in His presence, and You will hear His heart, and His desires. 

As I sit with Him, the cares that are on my heart can be left at his feet. The parts of me that are not in agreement with His heart, and His way, they "weigh me down". But so do the hurts that have happened and we still carry those scars. The scars can come from so many things- what someone does to me, or says about me; from a traumatic event, for a few ways. Sometimes those scars can make me feel like I am heavier, or just like I am carrying weight that I don't know how to let go of.

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As I think of this, I am reminded of this verse, "...let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us." (Hebrews 12: 1b- NKJV)

Waiting on the Lord, helps me lay aside the weight that would keep me from running the race. Because Waiting brings a fresh strength to run and to soar!

Lord, I know that there are scars and hurts that I have left buried, but that are weighing me down, making the race I am set to run more challenging than it needs to be. I want to practice more, and grow in my waiting on you to hear Your heart, and Your leading. Thank you that as I wait, you hear, you heal, and you strengthen me, to grow and fulfill all that you have destined me to do. - Amen